Mommy Finger, Baby Finger

The last month has been kind of crazy.

This week I turned 30 years old.

I also found myself signing papers for a new home on my birthday instead of celebrating my birthday in Hawaii as I’d initially planned.  

My mom loves to say, “God has a reason for allowing things to happen.”

We’re still in the process of doing more paperwork before we can move into our new home and have lots of packing and cleaning to do.

However, I had to make a tough decision about a relationship a few weeks ago.  A decision I had spent weeks going back and forth on.

Recently, a therapist I’ve been seeking counsel from in the last year reminded me about the importance of wholeness. I’ve been thinking about this a lot.

Wholeness means that your body, soul, and spirit are all functioning together so you can give and receive love. Wholeness must encompass all three. This simply means loving and accepting everything that makes you, you.  It’s important because to be able to give love and receive love, we need to be whole first. As Pastor Richard Dahlstrom explains in this video, “wholeness equips you to be a blessing to the world.”

In the Bible, we see that God wants to make us whole, complete in Him. God wants to restore, renew and rebirth our human spirit to have a relationship with Him.

Seeking wholeness is not for the faint at heart – it’s for those brave enough to do the work, show up as their real selves and want a new life bad enough to make the necessary changes. 

In the end, I decided to walk away and place this relationship in God’s hands … because in the end, I needed to be true to myself.

It was a tough decision because I truly loved this person. In fact, I looked forward to a future with them. However, when we allowed God into our relationship and asked Him to reveal everything within us, He exposed the things inside of us that were hindering us from having a full connection and it wasn’t easy to carry it all together.

While painful, it was a lesson that often we have to face what God brings to our attention to be whole. We have to be willing to push past our comfort zones to allow God to make us whole.

The interesting thing about this exposure, however, is you don’t know when it will happen.

Have you experienced something in your life that God used to expose what is really inside of you?

If you are struggling, this blog isn’t to be judgmental, but to encourage you to address the things in your life that are ‘in the dark’ now.

These dark places within us, if left unaddressed and unhealed often lead to anxiety, depression, fear and loneliness.

I have learned the hard way that pain doesn’t just go away, you have to be determined and intentional to turn your life around.  You have to allow God to have full access to every emotion, every trauma and shameful truth in your heart.

You can’t mask, suppress and neglect your pain and expect it to go away.

God sees your hurt, and He doesn’t want to leave you there.

Every part of you deserves to be loved into WHOLENESS.